Lurking Fear

Name: Lilith StabsAge: I try to not say. I fear that being an actress
and telling your age could lead to typecasting of a
sort.

Where do you live: I’m based in Atlanta, but also
frequent Columbus,Ohio, and L.A.

Web site name/url:

http://community.webtv.net/deathwishbarbie/COUNTESSLILITHSTABS

I have read that you got into show biz, and the public eye, through
being a dominatrix. Is this true?

Yes, it allows you some forms of media exposure with
ads you run, interviews, photos and stories in
magazines, etc. All that and the right image can get
you some attention.

What was it like?

It was fun but at times stressful to do on a full-time
basis. It is a business that can be good one month and
slow the next so that is where the stress comes in. It
is not consistent.

Do you still do this work?

On a very exclusive basis. Mostly when I travel.

What made you want to try to become a dominatrix?

I think the implements and fetish attire appealed to
me at a very young age and my interests grew. I
realized it was a way I could make a living, be my own
boss and still do the other entertainment type of work
I desired to do.

Are you involved in any other type of “sex” work?
(Porn/magazine shoots?)

No, I have had offers to do porn, and that is just not
a direction I desire to go. I’ve also had men’s
magazine offers but still haven’t given in to that.
The offer would have to be pretty specific: I would have
to have the cover shot, get paid a decent fee and have
creative control of the photos that were to be
published.

You have a growing fan base in the B-movie genre.
How many films have you done?

I think there are about eight now, but some are still
unreleased.

What is your favorite?

So far I think I will like Malefic the best, I liked
the role. It has not been released yet so I can’t be
sure. I enjoyed playing the character Lace. What she was
doing was truly bad, but deep down she had good
intentions.

Do you enjoy making movies? Is it just a job or a
passion?

I would have to say it is a passion. I would love to
do even more but there seems to be a lot of problems in the
B-movie industry with movies that never get made. I
get scripts and offers but the people end up having
budget problems and it never gets filmed. Then
sometimes it gets filmed and the movie is so delayed
in coming out because they have even more budget
problems that occur after filming, like editing,
distribution, etc.

I heard you did not want to do nudity in Vampire
Call Girls. Do you not approve of nudity in films?

I don’t approve of selling the movie just because of
the nudity. I think people should have a story line; a
good script is an excellent way to bring that about.
But in the B-industry they won’t even distribute a
movie unless there are nude scenes within the first 10
minutes. I think that the lines are getting crossed
between the softcore porn and B industries, and that is
truly a shame because there used to be some really
good B-horror films.

Have you done any nude scenes yet?

No, I have danced around that successfully so far. I
think the only reason I have gotten this far in the
B-industry and escaped doing the nude scenes is
because I have a very dominate image. It is easy for me
to play a lead vampiress or witch or killer who
doesn’t require nudity. I have been in scenes with
others who are nude, I don’t have objections to that.

I see you do lots of conventions, magazines, films, etc.
Which is the most fun to do?

They all have their appeal. Seeing myself in magazines
for some reason never gets old. And I enjoy doing
photo shoots for them as well as interviews. Films
can be great fun, especially if you are working with
some actors and actresses that you have become friends
with. But conventions tend to be the most fun of all;
you get to travel, meet fans, make new contacts and see
friends in the business.

What projects do you have going on; any books,
bands, films, etc.?

I’m currently writing several screenplays and am
supposed to begin shooting in late August for the first
of the three. I am also cast as “Lilith” in a movie
titled Portrait of Death, that will also film in
August. I have recorded my CD, but there are delays in
it being released. I plan on finishing a book this
winter (it is domination-related).

You have a dark, vampiress-look and people I have
talked to consider you goth. Do you consider yourself
goth, do you listen to that type of music, or live
that lifestyle?

I tend to be called goth quite a bit but I actually
consider myself more glam, so I term my look as darkly
glamourous. I love wearing colors, many strict goths
only wear black. I guess I just don’t like to put
these type of limits on myself. I do listen to some
goth music but also into industrial, techno, rock ‘n’ roll, punk and some pop. I do, however, live mostly at night.

What were you like as a teenager? Were you
attracted to the darker side of life?

Yes, I was into the darker elements of life, which
reflected in the way I dressed, the music I liked,
horror movies, etc. But I was still blonde and innocent
back then.

Do you still live in Atlanta?

Yes, Atlanta is still my home base. I do travel quite
often though, Columbus, Ohio, is a second home, I enjoy
L.A. a lot as well.

What do you do?

When in Atlanta I try to go out often and see friends
when I’m home.

Is there a cool music/art/film scene there?

There is a pretty decent music and art scene there.
But not that much as far as films.

How did your music CD turn out?

It is seriously delayed. And it is kind of out of my
hands at the moment. I have done my recording but
other aspects are holding things up but I do hope it
comes out within the next couple of months.

Is it available online anywhere?

It will be, mp3 is supposed to have it, as well as
various other sites.

I notice you have a bunch of photography online,
how did you get involved in this, is it something
you do a lot, or just a part-time hobby?

I love modeling and photography, I feel comfortable on
both sides of the camera. I enjoy working with
different photographers as far as modeling goes, it
gets me new material for my Web site, etc. And I love
taking photos for models/bands, etc. It allows me to
express a lot of creative ideas.

What is it like doing all these conventions, do
you enjoy seeing the fans?

It is usually a very enjoyable experience. Meeting
fans is a way of getting feedback that people are into
what you are doing.

What is one of the craziest things that has happened
at a convention?

I guess one of them would be when Andee Agony and
myself were set to do our marriage ceremony at a
convention in New Orleans, and had received death
threats all week before going. Needless to say we
cancelled those plans for safety’s sake, you never know.
Do you get recognized on the streets?

More often than I would have imagined. I consider most
of what I’ve done kind of underground, but if you do a
large quantity of even that level of stuff (movies,
music, magazines, modeling and Internet stuff) it
starts to get around and more people start to remember
you.

I notice you have quite a few Web links. Are you
comfortable with a computer?

Yes, but there are still things that stump me and make
me want to scream.

Do you design your own pages?

Yes, I think it would be too much trouble to have
someone else maintain it for me. There is always
something I want to add or change.

What do you like to do online?

I like answering my e-mail and sometimes visiting
various sites I stumble across.

You seem very busy. What is a day for you like?

I like to be busy. If I have slow time then I work
on writing and photo shoots, but I do that anyway so I
guess that qualifies as busy too.

What do you do to relax?

If not work itself, then I go out and do something fun
with friends. Or if I really want to relax I settle
down to watch some movies and cuddle with my pet bunny,
Serena.

What should we be watching for from Lilith Stabs?

The release of my CD (whenever that may be). And also
for the screenplays I’m currently working on to be
filmed, I’m hoping to start my own line of videos.

Can you give us a statement of sentence for your
fans?

Remember, when someone tells you your goals are
impossible, that should only make you strive harder to
achieve those goals. In other words never give up.

-[ Web cams these days are covering the internet, almost every site you visit is showing you someone's office, kitchen, or bedroom. Web cam articles have been in local papers, mentioned on the radio and even been on mainstream news shows like 'inside edition'. While most of these were stories were fairly informative, I wanted to get at the real girls behind the cams...To get some answers as to what they were really like, not some played up Hollywood shocker! ]- The saga continues, another addition to our Internet girl interviews. We have had some good feedback on what these girls are saying and doing. This month we visit Nikki Sinnette, a girl who runs an excellent free site containing many great images of herself. Nikkis site is for those 18 and older and contains some great artistic photos, not your typical site. You can also read her bio and check in with her journal. Lets hear what Nikki has to say….

Name/Webname: My name is Nikki Sinnette.Age: I’m twenty-five years old.

Zodiac Sign: I’m a Scorpio, so look out…

Website(s) Name: The World of Nikki Sinnette

Website(s) URL: www.geocities.com/nikkisinnette

How long have you been involved in the Internet: Only about four months.

How long have you been involved in the erotica/modeling/pinup scene: I’ve been modeling for years now.

Did you do modeling before coming online: Yes, and it was the many great erotic photos that I had laying about that inspired me to make my own site.

Are your images available on other sites or just yours: Yes, my favorite is the fetish photographer William Seibert’s site, who does most of my photos: www.geocities.com/williamseibert.

Does your site have a pay/members only section: No, I like my site to be free to all.

What other types of modeling do you do: I also do fine art modeling, for painters, sculptors, etc.

Your site seems very diverse, lots of different sections, what is your favorite one: I really enjoy writing in my journal section. It gives me a chance to voice my opinions on issues, and talk about my own personal fantasies. My fans seem to really enjoy the fact that I will often talk about a topic they have suggested. (And then I include related photos.)

Do you run and build the website or does someone else: Yes, I do it all myself.

Have you had any negative experiences from users of your site, (hatemail, etc.): No, I’ve been really lucky. Mainly, I have had positive feedback. My fans are great.

Have you been recognized in person by strangers who saw you online: Not yet.

Do you do nudes or porn, or just erotic modeling: I definitely use nudes and erotic shots, but I wouldn’t call the photos on my site porn. They’re more about desire, and the longing to see much more.

Since you’re involved in erotica, how do you feel about porn, do you think it should be regulated: I love porn! It serves a very important purpose in our society. Porn is an outlet, a way for people to maintain their sanity and enjoy themselves. I live in Cincinnati, Ohio, right now, where porn is not allowed in the city in any form. It just makes you realize how backward and medieval our society can be.

What type of music do you like? Any favorite bands? What about your favorite movies: Oh wow … that’s a hard question. So as not to develop a frighteningly long list: My favorite bands are Curve, Esthero, Massive Attack, Hooverphonic, Portishead, Suede, The Dandy Warhols, Polly Jean Harvey, and David Bowie. Movies, I would have to say anything by David Lynch, Barbarella, Pandora’s Box, Belle Du Jour, and many, many others.

What’s sexy to you? Are you a leather or lace kind of person? What really turns you on: Sexiness is something you can’t quite put your finger on. It’s an aura, the way a woman walks, the simple peek of white skin you see under her skirt when she climbs the escalator steps…I like the subtlety of sex. I don’t like everything right in my face. I’d rather use my imagination …

Who takes your photo? Would you consider photo shoots with other professionals: I take some of them myself and the others are by photographers I’ve worked with over the years. I am definitely open to new people, and I’m currently looking for new photographers.

Are you straight? Bi-sexual? Lesbian: I’m fervently bisexual. I like to have it all.

Give me a few words for your fans and potential new visitors: Welcome to the World of Nikki Sinnette.

Heywood Long

The Internet is used by millions of people; from mindless AOL drones to yellow-eyed, self-networked computer freaks. And as the usage continues to grow (so fast, in fact, that modern search engines can only index 42% of the current content), the security of the basic business or personal site gets weaker and weaker. While you might wonder what security has to do with you, a growing number of people are finding out first hand how easy it is to compromise a web site.

Let’s take our friend Mike, a typical AOL user (the scourge of the information age) who spent the past two years working on his personal Web site on and off. Now this wasn’t any ordinary site (according to Mike); it featured pictures of him, his family and many lovely pictures of his brand new Ford Mustang. Wow, how could one resist visiting this pot-o-gold!! But to Mike, this site was his pride and joy. At every search engine he visited he made sure to post his link, he told all his friends, and he checked his hit counter daily. (You have to wonder how many hits were from him.) Then it happened: A gloomy Sunday morning, the sun was hidden behind dark storm clouds as Mike pointed his trusty Web browser to his site only to discover he had been 0wNeD (as the main page stated in large, bold letters)!! ( another note: 0wNeD or 0wN3D means that you suck and your site is now run by some hacker ) His years of work had been destroyed and the worst was yet to come. Scrolling down the page, Mike discovered the intruders had taken his family pictures, cut the head off his mom and sister and pasted them onto some rather pornographic JPGs. Mike was devastated.
This is actually quite a common occurrence these days, and with the availability of hacker exploit tools [http://www.ssg-inc.net/hacker_tools.htm], it’s pretty easy for just about anyone to accomplish, no matter what your knowledge of computers. This kind of act isn’t happening to just personal Web sites either. A growing number of businesses, even government sites, have been 0wNeD!! (As the hackers like to put it.) Take a look at some of these photos to see some of the work:

Above is the hacked version of www.magicpokemon.com.

Above is the hacked version of www.netdaemon.org.

Here are some sites that list other hacked Web sites.

http://www.onething.com/archive/ – This site features a great list, with many of the exploits in their archive.

http://www.guardcentral.com/support_info/hacked.shtml – This is another really good list, seems fairly up to date.

Now you’re probably thinking, “Gee whiz 001001001 ( this is what is called a handle or pen name for those who don’t know, the numbers 001001 refer to binary computer code ), if these big companies can get hacked so easy, what can I do?” Well … probably nothing. If someone wants to hack you, and they’re good enough, they’ll eventually get through. The most insecure system is one that’s connected to the Internet. But don’t fret, Chet; you can take some precautions…

. Don’t use the same password everywhere
. Don’t let your friends use your password
. Don’t give out personal info on the net
. Never, never use your spouse’s name as a password (86% of people do)
. And don’t type your password in view of other people

And the number one thing you can do if you want to be sure you won’t lose any of your hard work:

MAKE BACKUPS!!!

You don’t think these hacked companies get back online by having everything re-done? No, they went to their trusty tape or CD drive and restored the site. This is probably the most frustrating thing that can happen to a hacker: They spend all night hacking a site, changing the html files, and boom … the next morning when they tell all their friends on IRC to go look, the original site is restored good as new. Now of course, a good system administrator will have to fix the path the hacker got through on, but that is probably far beyond what the basic user needs to do.

This trend in hacking will continue to grow as long as computers and the Internet do. Think about it: In 1985, how many hackers did you hear about? Probably about as many in a year as people you knew who had a Vic20! But keep yourself together: The Information Warfare era is just beginning.

Oh Yeah, All Your Base Are Belong To Us!

The circle is formed in the flickering lights of a raging bonfire. The red- and black-robed figures gather close to the feet of their ancient owl-God Moloch. Hoods are drawn close over the hundreds of faces as the chanting grows louder and louder, then when the incessant rhythm reaches a pitched frenzy, the ritual “Cremation of Care” is performed: An effigy of a human child is tossed into the raging, fiery pit. The figures chant and sway with wild abandon as the figure burns, and with its descent into ashes comes the end of the ritual. Sounds like a great movie plot doesn’t it? Or perhaps some mystical ritual from the history books of ancient Europe. Well, you’re right about the ritual part. The “Cremation of Care” is an ancient Molochian ritual practiced in many cultures, from Ireland to Phoenicia. But this particular event didn’t take place hundreds of years ago. It happens every year at one of the worlds most secretive and elite clubs — The Bohemian Grove.
The 2,700-acre retreat is about 70 miles north of San Francisco, and two weeks out of every year, deep in the redwoods of Monte Rio, Calif., the Bohemian Club meets. It is one of the most prestigious clubs on earth. Formed in 1872 by wealthy newspapermen who wanted a taste of culture in the middle of the old west, the Bohemian club has evolved into a meeting of some of the most political and influential people in the nation. One of the more queer aspects of the club, is that although it was formed by members of the media, media people are no longer allowed admittance. The club is said to boast anywhere from 2000 to 3000 members; all male, and all of impressive social and political standing. The waiting list can be as long as 15 years. On the membership list, one would see every member of the Bush family, the President of Mexico, leaders of the Bank Of America, the Secretary Of State (current and many past) and a multitude of other very prominent names. In fact, every republican president has been a member, and a few democratics as well. “Weaving Spiders Come Not Here,” the club’s motto, is obviously not in mind when prominent members listen to “lakeside chats” on world power economics, given by the head of the world bank. After which the secretary of the Navy might gab about military budget issues and the stock exchange. While portrayed as harmless talks, these powwows allow elite clubbers to walk away with inside information on high-level issues and in-depth knowledge of future plans for world politics. The ultimate in conspiracy and elitism.
During the day, members can lounge in various camps around the club, each bearing its own name, like “The Hillbillies” or “Devil Heads.” Some of these camps are the utmost in luxury, sporting pianos and posh furniture, others are mere tents around a fire. But all members get the utmost in service. A great number of servants is needed to host the large gathering; with servants being 99% white males (although the California Supreme Court has recently ordered the club to accept female food service workers). Meals consist of anything each member would like, from lobster to hot dogs. Champagne and other alcohol flows freely as members participate in shooting contests, hiking, fishing and swimming. But that is not the only activity the spoiled members of this club enjoy.
On July 15, 2000, reporter Alex Jones [http://www.infowars.com/bg1.html] infiltrated the woods near Bohemian Grove armed with his digital video camera, and what he filmed was truly amazing. As midnight approached, Jones filmed the hundreds of Grove members form a circle around a large, 40-foot-tall, owl-shaped idol in the center of a clearing. Priest-like figures wearing red and black robes circled the statue, chanting and swaying in the firelight. During this display, across the water paddled a black-garbed boatman, his face painted in the image of a skull. The boatman delivered what Jones called “an effigy of a human form,” which was tossed onto the flames as members screamed and thrashed about the fire.While the image of our country’s leaders performing mock sacrificial rituals deep in an exclusive club might seem odd, other allegations are even stranger. In Cathy O’Brien and Mark Phillips’ book, The Trance-Formation Of America, sources state that brainwashing, kidnapping, sodomy and ritual murder is practiced on the wooded lot of the club. The local paper, Santa Rosa Sun, reported on the strange occurrences at the Grove. The paper also wrote of the Cult Of Canaan and the human sacrificial rituals performed for the great owl god Moloch. In the late 1980s local and state police started investigating disappearances and murders in remote areas of the clubs grounds, but none of these investigations ever went anywhere.
The gathering of elite, high-level executives and top political figures alone can raise some suspicion of conspiracy. But the strange hooded rituals and chanting in the woods is something almost unimaginable by most, especially when the chanting and sacrifice is done by the likes of George Bush and Dick Cheney. The outrage over the actions of the Bohemian Club has spawned a group called the Bohemian Grove Action Network [http://www.sonomacountyfreepress.org/bohos/bohoindx.html]. The images gathered by the group definitely portray some bizarre events. But whether they portray a friendly camping trip for the rich and powerful, or a dark conspiracy fueled by the power of, and adoration for, an ancient, dark God, that is for you to decide.

In Paradise Lost, John Milton described Moloch as follows:

“First Moloch, horrid king, besmirched with blood
Of human sacrifice, and parents’ tears,
Though, for the noise of drums and timbrels loud,
Their children’s cries unheard, that passed through fire
To his grim idol.”

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p>-[ Webcams these days are covering the internet, almost every site you visit is showing you someones office, kitchen, or bedroom. Webcam articles have been in local papers, mentioned on the radio and even been on mainstream news shows like 'inside edition'. While most of these were stories were fairly informative, I wanted to get at the real girls behind the cams...To get some answers as to what they were really like, not some played up hollywood shocker! ]-Hey everyone…welcome back to the running saga of our favorite web girls. This month we are talking with Raven creator and designer of http://www.sexraven.com. Her site is excellent, the design is great and the layout is awesome, but lets not forget the best part….Raven herself… She came to visit us here at toosquare, we talked for a bit and got the juice on who she is and what she is doing…..Check it out and tell me what you think…

Name/Webname – Raven

Age – 31

Zodiac Sign – Virgo

Website(s) Name – Camgirl Raven

Website(s) URL – www.sexraven.com

How long have you been involved in the internet?

I was introduced to the internet in 1996, when I was still living in Australia. Some friends and I
were attempting to get a small press horror magazine off the ground, and the internet was our connection to a world of research, artists and writers.

How long have you been involved in the erotica/modeling/pinup scene?

I used to run my own web and graphic design business and in April 2000 landed a project as graphic designer for an up and coming camsite. When it came time to test run the live video chat rooms, the guys I was working for thought it would be fun to involve me and sent me webcam as a gift. Big mistake After getting to know the girls that were going to be actively exhibiting on the site, I realised that the majority of them are simple every day people like you and me, some with families. One girl that I particularly liked was deaf! I was intrigued with the work they were doing and the money they were earning, and became curious as to whether I could do this, too. One evening I switched on my cam and recorded and AVI movie of myself pretending to be a camgirl. I sent stills to the guys I was working with to get their opinion. To cut a long story short, I officially signed up as an exhibitor in October 2000 and began a whole new career.

Did you do modeling before coming online?

Prior to me becoming a camgirl I did some modelling for photoshoots, but not erotica!

How long has your website been online, was it hard getting it started, what inspired your website?

My site debuted in October 2000 as a free site. It was mainly used to advertise myself and the live camshows that I was doing. It was difficult at first, because although I was able to do all the design and coding myself, I had next to no material to work with. Luckily, the cam network I worked for took stills from live shows and I was able to use those. Right from the start, I knew I wanted to do something different. I am an artist, and therefore I wanted to somehow incorporate my creativity and emotions into my shows. My viewers early on enjoyed my different costumes, backdrops, props and toys. They loved the fact that I would take time to chat with them too, not just reel them in for shows and then move on to the next one. I like to be open and intimate with people, and this comes across in my shows. As I drew a larger audience, my archives of show stills and photographs began to grow larger and more explicit and in February of this year I decided to add a members only section to the site. With the help of the guys at Cam Depot I was able to offer a members only chatroom with audio on my own site. The members only area has evolved into an intimate community. I add a new series of photographs every week, and also feature one fellow camgirl at a time in the guest gallery. From time to time I write erotic stories and post those in my fantasy journal. I have been approached by people who want to do reviews of my site, and it’s always so satisfying to read what they have to say, because I always manage to get rave reviews! Knowing that my site is being enjoyed and appreciated so much is a great feeling.

Are your images available on other sites or just yours?

From time to time I will exchange photographs with another girl who has her own site. But I am choosy about who I exchange photos with. My standards of myself and my work are very high and I expect the same from sites that I affiliate myself
with. Earlier in the year a small group of us formed the Quality Erotica coalition to promote sexuality that goes beyond porn… erotica that is sensual, expressive and real, often with a very artistic flair. Within the coalition we do exchange photographs regularly to display on our sites.

What other types of modeling do you do?

I don’t do a lot, to be honest. Several months ago I did a shoot for sweetbabyoctane.com – they have a site right now that promotes their piercing and tattooing, but they also make a very extensive range of fetish and BDSM play gear. I modelled gags, gasmasks and other fun stuff. The guy that runs the place, D, is very creative himself. For some time I have been wanting to move towards
expressing the darker side of my sexuality. With D’s photographic ability and artistic eye I will be able to scratch that itch.

Are you involved in films, if so which, what are they about, how many have
you done?

Heh… it’s funny should bring this up. I’m on the verge of producing my own videos, because I have been approached by numerous people in the past for custom stuff. A few weeks ago I purchased a whole camera outfit, and as soon as I get the video capture card I want, I’m ready to start. I am not into mainstream porn, so I want to create something that will stimulate people’s thoughts and emotions as well as get their juices flowing.

Do you run and build the website or does someone else?

Everything is created and coded 100% by me. I have total control, because I don’t trust anyone else to present me in the light that I want to be presented in. Mind you, these days things are much busier and sometimes I do wish I had someone to delegate some of th simpler tasks to!

Have you had any negative experiences from users of your site, ( hatemail, etc )?

Surprisingly little, actually. The only ‘negative’ comments I get are people who want to get across to me that God does not approve of this kind of thing. I haven’t had any really good ones, which is a pity, because I’d love to share them with my members What I DO get on a regular basis is explicit emails telling me in detail what the writer would like to do to
me… these usually include cam stills of erect penises.

Have you ever been recognized by a stranger who saw you online?

No. At least, not that I know of. How many guys would have the balls to approach me and say ‘hey, you’re Raven, aren’t you’? Not many, I would say

How do your friends and family feel about you posing online?

Nobody outside of my direct household knows about this except for a friend of mine in San Francisco. He’s been very supportive, although secretly I think he’s probably thinking that Christmas has come! There’s always the chance of someone who I know recognising me online, but my thoughts on that are if they manage to run into me online, they were obviously doing something they shouldn’t have been doing.

Since you are involved in erotica, how do you feel about porn, do you think it should be regulated?

I do not believe in censorship, therefore I don’t believe in regulation. There is a lot of stuff out there that is not something I would personally or be involved in, but everyone has different tastes and desires. This is a free world and as long as people don’t get hurt in the process, I think these tastes and desires should be fulfilled. I do, however, believe in parental influence and the correct education and protection of children and minors.

What type of music do you like, favorite bands, what about your favorite movies?

Hmmm… that’s a difficult question! With music taste, I am pretty diverse. I grew up with 80s music, so I am partial to that. However, when I go out (which is not very often these days) I like to dance, so techno really gets me pumped up. When I lived in Miami for a year I frequented the South Beach scene very heavily – it was a real treat. In general though, I like gothic and alternative music… more the older stuff than the newer The Smiths and Morrissey, The Cure, The Pixies, The
Cult, Bauhaus, Sisters of Mercy. I also like Stabbing Westward, Disturbed, Rammstein… you get the idea As far as movies go, the list is long and consists mainly of horror films, but some of my favourites are the Hellraiser series (pinhead is my hero!), House on Haunted Hill, The Changeling, The Sixth Sense, Sleepy Hollow.

What is ‘sexy’ to you? ( some like shiny leather, others white lingerie ) what really do think sexy is?

That very much depends on my mood. If I am feeling particularly naughty, I want to wear lots of black eyeliner, vinyl, fishnet and lace up boots. If I am feeling soft and vulnerable you will see me in something white, with a hint of perfume and my hair up. Generally, sexiness is not in what you wear, it’s HOW you wear it and the attitude you display with it. From time to time, viewers will send me clothing or lingerie, and they’re alway astounded as to how I can then manage to ‘make it my own’. For instance, let’s take a vinyl miniskirt… put it on, and it’s just a miniskirt. However, turn around and hitch it up a little so that your cheeks show, and voila! How much sexier can you get? I think that showing just a little can get hearts pumping in anticipation and imaginations running wild. Showing everything right off the bat is in your face and boring.

Who takes your photo’s? Are you open for other photo shoots from
professionals?

My partner and I take the majority of them, but some are shot by Mel Aber and D from Sweet Baby Octane. I really don’t have a need right now for photos from other professionals, although I always keep my eyes open for new opportunities.

Are you straight? Bi-sexual? Lesbian?

Definately straight.

What is a common question you get from people looking at your photos?

Are you single?

What else do you do for fun, what is your day like?

My days are pretty hectic. It mainly consists of sitting on my butt in front of my computer. Responding to email and working on my site takes up the majority of my day. Working on my site is not just physical work on the site, it means putting together promotional picture packs, CDs, making new graphics and banners, looking for new contacts, getting listed in the adult directories. It’s a full time job! Then, in the evenings, I spend time online with my members and viewers. I do a full photoshoot once a week to get material for my site. When I do manage to sneak away from my computer I like to read, tend to my herb garden, play with my ferrets, rollerblade, watch movies, visit used book stores. Oh wow, I sound like a nerd

Please give me ‘sentence’ or ‘statement’ for your fans or potential new
visitors..

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Once forced into the back alleys of computer bulletin boards and talked about amongst shifty eyed anarchists over late night espressos, conspiracy theories are now mainstream. So mainstream, in fact, that Mel Gibson offered his services in a major Hollywood film about the subject. Do secret conspiracy groups control the outcome of World decisions? Do they monitor our every move? Are a few elite, wealthy families deciding the outcome of world politics? When examining some of the evidence, one might be inclined to think so.

Sounds ridiculous, doesn’t it? The idea that a small, powerful few control everything that happens around us. Well, a growing number of people these days are convinced this is just the case; perhaps not down to controlling every decision we make, but at least controlling important world decisions. Many of these powerful groups, like the illuminati, the trilateral commission, and the freemasons, pull members from an elite college club, the Skull & Bones Society. This elite club, known only to exist at Yale University, is a stepping stone into world power, politics and wealth. Lets take a look at the foundations of the group, who they are, and what they become.

In 1833, General William Huntington Russell and Alphonso Taft formed the first American chapter of the German order on the grounds of Yale University. It was an elite, seniors-only club founded to establish a meeting place for the sons of the wealthy bankers of the time. It was incorporated as The Russell Trust in 1856 (this was done to hide the paper trail of the group under the regulations of corporate law), and has been known by such monikers as the “Brotherhood of Death,” “The Order,” “Chapter 322,” and its best-known name, “Skull & Bones.” To outsiders the group might seem like a typical college fraternal organization, but it is much more than that. Unlike other fraternities, Skull & Bones is only known to exist on the Ivy League, New Haven, Connecticut campus of Yale; other locations of the group can neither be confirmed nor denied as all members are sworn to secrecy. Information regarding the group is difficult to obtain, because one of the primary rules of the group is to deny membership. (This rule in itself is not typical of your average fraternity.) In past efforts to find members of the group, only about a half dozen people actually confirmed membership, although on campus it is said that all senior “bonesmen” are well known by faculty and administration. The secrecy regarding the group is maintained quite well, but some basic information regarding recruitment and initiation is well known.

Each year 15 seniors are selected to become new members, while the actual requirements needed to join are not known, it is known that each of these 15 members are “tapped” to enter. This tapping is said to come in one of two forms; a late night phone call, with the member having to race to a pay phone somewhere on campus in a short period of time (this was portrayed in the movie Skulls), or an abduction of the new recruit by an elder bonesmen. These select 15 are then lead into The Tomb, or the meeting hall of the group (a large windowless stone building on campus). They are then stripped naked, blindfolded and put into coffins in a lower chamber of the building, and allegedly forced to tell all of their sexual exploits. While common rumor has it these sexual tales are used to hold the new bonesmen to secrecy about the group (for fear of them becoming public), it is more likely an allegorical “rebirth” from the barbarian world into the elite group. Upon his rebirth, each new bonesmen is given $15,000 dollars and a grandfather clock.

The Tomb is a very interesting place that represents the power the group has had since its inception. The building is a large, brownstone building, windowless with two large, tri-locked metal doors. The door is never opened in front of any non-members (vandals or outsiders as they are called by bonesmen). On meeting nights, each Sunday and Thursday, strange sounds and moans are heard by people walking past the building. The Tomb, while it does exist on campus, is not the property of Yale, and no person other than bonesmen may enter. This infamous building was breached one time in 1876 by a group calling itself “The Order of File and Claw,” the members of which broke into the building and found various lodge rooms adorned with pentagrams and strange statues. Now that we know some of the inner workings of this group, lets take a look at who the group is, and what they do.

Powerful elite are the chosen members of this group, and the membership list of Skull & Bones reads like a Who’s Who of all the wealthy people of today and the past. The group has a major influence on the CIA, as bonesmen Trubee Davison acted as Director of Personnel for the CIA in the organization’s early years. Other bonesmen connected with the intelligence community include:

Sloane Coffin Jr.
V. Van Dine
James Buckley
Bill Buckley
Hugh Cunningham
Hugh Wilson
Reuben Holden
Charles Walker
Robert French
Archibald Macliesh
Dino Pionzio
William Bundy
Richard Moore
Senator David Boren
Senator John Kerry
GH Bush
George Bush
GW Bush

Other prominent members include

Henry Luce, Time Life
John Daniels, found Archer Daniels Midland
Gifford Pinchot, Roosevelt’s chief forester
Harold Stanley, founder Morgan Stanley
Alfred Cowles, founder Cowles Communication
Henry Davison, partner Morgan Guaranty Trust Company
Thomas Cochran, another Morgan partner
Senator John Heinz
Pierre Jay, chairman Federal Reserve Bank
George Herbert, financier and co-founder of the NY Mets
Artemus Gates, president NY Trust, Union Pacific, Time, Boeing
William Draper III, the Defense Dept, Import Export Bank
Dean Witter Jr., investment banker
Senator Jonathan Bingham
Potter Stewart, Supreme Court Justice
Senator John Chaffe
Harry Payne Whitney, investment banker, husband of Gertrude Vanderbilt
Russell W. Davenport, editor Fortune Magazine, created Fortune 500 list
Evan G. Galbraith, Ambassador to France and Managing Director of Morgan Stanley
Richard Gow, president Zapata Oil
Amory Howe Bradford, husband of Carol Warburg Rothschild, general manager New York Times
C. E. Lord, Comptroller of the Currency
Winston Lord, Chairman of CFR, Ambassador to China and Asst. Secretary of State for Clinton

This list is quite impressive coming from a small club that only allows 15 new members a year. But the list goes on from there. Gaddis Smith, a history professor at Yale, said, “Yale has influenced the Central Intelligence Agency more than any other university, giving the CIA the atmosphere of a class reunion.” Smith maintains Bonesmen have been foremost among the “spooks” building the CIA’s “haunted house.”
But what does all this mean, you might wonder? Well, by looking at the names on the above roster of members, many synonymous with political power and money, you could reason it would be quite easy for Skull & Bones to influence and control the outcome in such areas as corporate takeovers, gas prices, world politics and military might. And that is exactly what members of this secret group do. Yale itself is now almost exclusively run by the society; almost all funding for the college comes from ex-members. Timothy Dwight, a professor at Yale Divinity School, was installed as president of Yale in 1886. All presidents since have been either bonesmen or directly tied to the order and its interests.
And this is just the tip of the iceberg: Bonesmen are said to have a hand in almost every major event in U.S. and world history the past 50 years. The list above reads like the guest book at any political rally in Washington. With this much backing of power, money and political muscle there is almost no doubt that major influence can be had. Other activities of the bonesmen include eugenics, population control, suppression of history and technology, obviously profitable partnerships, war-mongering, profiteering, mind control, and the list goes on and on.

So is the Skull & Bones a friendly college fraternity with secret passwords and handshakes? Or is it a proving ground, a doorway to global control and power politics. The names mentioned alone seem to bring us to the conclusion of the latter. Can any other college club boast a similar high-powered name list like that of the Skull & Bones, while maintaining such a small membership base? They cannot and do not. And while controlling every move each of us makes is unlikely, any single group that can flex that much political and monetary might can almost definitely control political events.

Of course, all of these ideas are pure conjecture; the paper trail has long since been covered.

Next month, the Bohemian Club and their Paradise in California.
[ information used from http://www.sightings.com/political/drugshistoryetc.html ]

A Moment WIth Lydia Lunch No more a punk, no more a goth, Lydia Lunch the artist. Dubbed a “confrontationalist” by just about every magazine you read. Thought of as the underground diva, goddess, Lydia Lunch is none of these. Beginning her career in 1976 with the band Teenage Jesus and the Jerks, Lydia has since pushed her art into every crack and crevice she could. Lydia Lunch has touched almost every genre with her style, from music, artwork, poetry, film, and currently a screenplay and novel. Lydia Lunch has given her style of art to the world, often with a stinging slap in the face to some, or wake up call to others. Lydia is an artist, that is all I can say.interview date 4-15-01 NR -I think you have always been labeled or cast into the ‘punk’ scene, but most of the people I know would group (for lack of a better word) you with poets like Burroughs or artists like Warhol. How do you feel about labels and or do you identify with the ‘punk’ social scene or who do you identify with? LL -I’ve always felt outside of any social circle, I had nothing to do with “punk”…my music was never based around the chords, politics, or fashion that define “punk”…it’s probably my attitude that cursed me , (guilt by association, if you will…) I feel I have more in common with Selby and Genet, because of the emotional scope of my work and the language I constantly strive to re-invent. NR -How do you feel about the modern underground (film/music/art) scene, it seems that in the early 80′s it was easy to identify people involved with it or in it, but now it seems to have all been eaten by modern MTV culture, do you think your work is still underground or considered underground. How Do you feel about modern MTV culture using the icons of the 80′s underground for advertisements? LL -MTV as Vampire, corporate whore and bore. I’m sure there is still an underground, and a lot of it still consists of those who have always dwelled there, as well as a plethora of music, film and art we have little access to introduction of, because of fewer alternative periodicals. I have always been even beyond the underground; since there is no specific clique or cult I belong to, or ever have (a dabbler, if you will). In Europe, which has supported my art for the past 23 years, and where I tour yearly w/either music or spoken word, they view my body of work, in a more historical and literary sense, respecting the amount of work I’ve actually done, instead the amount (or lack of) records I’ve sold or magazines I’ve been featured in. I want to puke every time I hear Lust for Life (Iggy Pop) used in a car ad…. NR -Many people talk about the film ‘fingered’; do you still talk with Kern, or any of the others involved in the films? Do you have plans to do more films? Have you been offered any Hollywood roles? Some people would consider some of your films bordering on pornography, do you have a feeling on Porn? LL -I still talk to Kern, Marty Nation (whose become a French Culinary Chef!!!) The Whitney Museum of Art did a huge retrospective on the Cinema of Transgression in 1998, with Fingered featured as the main feature. That was bizarre. Pornographers were horrified by the film, probably because under the guise of “ART” we were able to get away with atrocities porno couldn’t. I think pornography serves a valid use. I just wish there existed more alternative pornography. Never offered any Hollywood film roles…that’s a bullshit system you have to have middlemen to pimp your ass off…Lynch, Cronenburg, and even John Waters (who I’ve performed with and still receive Xmas cards from), has never even invited me into one of their Hollywood vehicles….and to be honest I can’t think of one film in the last 10 years I would have wanted to be any part of, except FIGHT CLUB, my favorite film of the last decade. NR -How do you feel about the Internet? Do you feel it is an artistic outlet or more a utilitarian device? Do you use the net; are you active in email or other things (chat rooms, browsing, games)?LL -I have never been in a chat room, have no interest, I barely have the time to communicate with people I want to. I feel used right it should be access to an unlimited amount of useful information. I feel however it sucks up too much time, is hypnotic in the worst ways, diminishes social skills, and should be treated with a healthy amount of disdain, unless employed in a utilitarian method.NR -Do you hang out with anyone in particular, I mean you are somewhat ‘famous’ do you think of yourself as famous? Do people recognize you when you go out, does this bother you if it does happen? I hear a lot of well-known people won’t even go out without guards and such. LL -Please…I prefer to be known as infamous or notorious, not FAMOUS…I’m never recognized, why should I be, my fan base hasn’t increased in twenty years (why should it?…it’s almost impossible to get a handle on what I’ve done in this country, I’m kept so far out of not only the mainstream, but the “underground” as well…. This I am thankful for..) No, I’ve never used guards; I can protect and take care of myself thanks…. I have the same friends I’ve always had. I don’t “hang out” or go to bars (It would be like a Dr. going to the emergency room on his day off….) NR -Where are you living now, (if you don’t mind) is it active in the arts? Are there lots of places to put on shows or do readings? LL -I lived in Pittsburgh for 4 years before relocating to Los Angeles 2 years ago (where I spent some time in the early ’80′s). I moved here mainly to be closer to other writers like Jerry Stahl and Hubert Selby. The energy I both despise and welcome, is prevalent in abundance here…The noir influence of the multitude of other writers who have spent time here, the architecture etc….the bullshit nature of everything L.A. is also somewhat of a force field to buck against. I’m sure I won’t stay here much longer, probably head to the Carolina’s or West Virginia…. NR -Who are some of your favorite artists/musicians/poets? LL -ART: Damien Hirst, Marcel DuChamp, Karen Finley, Shirin Nashat, Mark Ryden Musicians: JG Thirlwell, Barry Adamson, Alexander Hacker (of Nuebaten) Roland Kirk, Miles Davis, Nina Simone, Kool Keith, Scarface, Facemob…. Poets:…can’t stand most of it….but Wanda Coleman, Nicki Giovanni NR -What got you started in the arts? Did you always know you would be an artist? Did you ever want to quit and work regular jobs? What regular Jobs have you worked? LL -The need to rebel against what inspired me in the first place. Unlike contemporary postindustrial, punk, goth hybrids, like Marilyn Manson who is basically an amalgamation of all his influences, I wanted to reach beyond music like Patti Smith and the Velvet Underground and create something that had no relation to what they did, because I found it all to linear and predictable. I haven’t had a job since I was 20….my biggest success, avoiding the 9-5…without European tours and a shrewd organizational ability, as well as a moderate lifestyle I would have never been able to achieve this. NR -What is your favorite work you’ve done? LL -The entire body of work, the fact I’ve never been tied to one format, the ability to sway from music to spoken word to photography, not one specific project gains much precedent, well, okay, forced to choose, Stinkfist w/ Thirlwell and Shotgun Wedding w/ Rowland S Howard. NR -What countries have you performed in, which is your favorite. LL -England, Denmark, Norway, Sweden, Switzerland, Germany, Poland, Russia, Holland, Belgium, Luxemburg, Slovenia, France, Spain. Anywhere in Italy, they treat me like the pope. NR -What is a day in your life like? What do you do all day… LL -I sleep as little as possible, read as much as I can, watch the news as comedy, do whatever work I have to applying to whatever project I’m Working on, recreate my own world over and over again, and plan my next moves, keep an eye six months in advance of the here and now, so I don’t financial sink into complete poverty. NR -How do you feel about the current American political system, do you feel the American public is lethargic? (it seems most are pumped by beer and football) LL -You’re in Florida…you must realize what a complete farce the whole system is… I was in Europe during the elections…all of Europe was Hysterical over how ridiculous the whole affair was. And is… Bush???? How low can we stoop as a nation…an inarticulate, spoon fed moron, whose home state boasts the most executions, ignores education, still sports a cowboy mentality..etc..now the leader of the free world??? WE’RE FUCKED…. NR -Do you think there is a severe social problem in the United States, it seems we are far more violent and destructive than most cultures. If you do feel this, how does it fit into the context of your work? LL -We have been ruined as a nation, raised as spoiled little brats, who believe our country is the “best” in the world, force-fed a consumerism which borders on obscenity, which we’ve all bought into, trained as capitalists, whose main job is to make money and buy every new toy that’s advertised on TV, constantly charging after the carrot that’s dangled in front of our faces, yet we have the worst reading and math scores of any industrial nation, a third of Americans still live in Poverty, mega mergers are forcing tens of thousands of people out of work, as corporations become global conglomerates, and as a country we Have no collective soul….how could I stand to live any where else, the soil Is so ripe with contamination…..NR -If you could fix one thing, in your life, in the country, or in the world, what would it be?LL -More individual responsibility for every action, starting with a total realization of where every single dollar you do spend goes and whose hands it ultimately ends up in…if everyone was truly aware of this simple fact….so many corporations would fall it would be beautiful.

Awaiting by the lighted post,
your way is shown with the dancing rays
of gaseous flames and orange light.
The brisk cold evening,
cobbles underfoot damp and glistening from the
moist felt air of the night.
I hear your steps are quick and sure
as you approach me echoing across the
mist, you visage appearing within my sight.
We embrace a spinning and twirling mass,
dancing together our cloaks
and arms entwine so tight.
A lover becomes enthralled in such emotions,
you have left your home to give me elders words
that our love is far from right.
And you repeat the tear filled message
of how this will be our last time
to enjoy each and our delights.
To this my mind goes numb
and tears are blackness upon my eyes, the rage
makes my brain a seething blight.
Then surprise and horror fill your face,
the darkness cloaks us from prying eyes
and my cold hands grip your neck so slight.
And I take from you your dying breath,
if I cannot have you no-one shall, and
I give you deaths long kiss goodnight.